I'm still alive, but I'm barely breathing

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing just prayed to a God that I don't believe in, 'Coz I got time while he got freedom ,'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even,his best days will be some of my worst he finally met a girl that's gonna put him 1st while I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping , wWhat am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok? I'm falling to pieces